“Higher Power, I have tried to control the uncontrollable for far too long. I ask that you take this burden from me. I acknowledge that my life is unmanageable. I ask for your care and guidance.”

– Life with Hope, second edition, page 13

My relationship with a Higher Power is a fundamental part of my recovery. I’m freed from the need for control and I gain strength knowing that my Higher Power loves me unconditionally. It is a powerful positive energy that I truly believe wants to help me, teach me, and lead me towards becoming my best self. I do not understand what my Higher Power is, or how it does things. All I have to do is show up, follow through on my responsibilities, and be kind to myself and others. I get to trust that Higher Power will take care of the rest.

My life when I was using marijuana was disorganized, hollow, and repetitive. My addiction kept me from being social and being present in my life. I feel blessed to be in recovery and to be fully present each and every day.

I came to the program, like many others, without a belief in a Higher Power. I was never against it, but I never knew that it could be anything of my own understanding. I can choose to believe in whatever works best for me because it allows me to let go, and go with the flow. I can fully enjoy each and every moment without obsessively holding on or pushing things away.

MA is a community; a power greater than myself. My friendships here have taught me so much about healthier ways to live and relate. It has truly transformed my life into something that I look forward to every night when I go to sleep.

Final thought: Today, I am excited to be myself. I’ve become patient enough to recognize that everything is on God’s time, not my own.