“This step helped us move towards sanity. It cut through our mental cobwebs like a sword and slew the dragons of delusion that had plagued us. We now find we no longer have to behave a certain way because of a resentment we acquired years ago. We no longer need to have the same kind of cavalier, selfish and manipulative attitude…”

– Life with Hope, first edition, page 24

I was so afraid of sharing with my sponsor what I had written in my inventory; I felt like hiding in the darkest corner, hoping it would go away. By this point in my recovery, I knew I had to face these dragons, these overwhelming fears and illusions keeping me from growing spiritually. After I had shared what I had written, I felt the shame and guilt that I had been carrying lift.

For the first time in years, I felt light, joyous, and free. The resentments and fears that had kept me toking for years no longer frightened me. I was now willing to face my life with a new design for living. No longer hiding from my problems, I acquired the spiritual tools that could actually relieve the burden one day at a time.

Final thought: Today, I will not fear the dragons of delusion. I will face today with eyes wide open and a willing heart.