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Transformation
Written By, Daniele S.
My heart is beating forcefully
My armpits are damp
My hands are twisting in my lap
My lips are trembling
My nose is clogged
Tears keep seeping from my eyes
What am I doing here in this place,
Sitting around an oval table with strangers
Listening to them talk?
I’m mute. I’m frozen. I’m processing an influx of emotion
Fear. Discomfort. Trepidation. Sadness. Guilt. Regret.
I am finally facing the TRUTH
Head on, eyes open
It’s clear
Or, rather, it becomes clear as I hear their stories
Similar in substance if not in detail
To mine
Years, decades of denial, of obfuscation
All those buried feelings… emerging
What is happening to me?
Only the Lord knows…
Published In – A New Leaf – December 2024
Step One
Written by, Anna T. I have admitted that I am powerless over cocaine, marijuana, my boyfriend and all mind altering drugs. My life is/was out of control – I couldn’t handle my bills and my relationship with my boyfriend. I was having a hard time getting up for work. I was becoming co-dependent and resentful…
THOUGHTS FROM THE FIELD
“Freedom from marijuana, alcohol, and all other mind altering substances” Written by, Carol M. There was quite a brouhaha about that statement a couple of years ago. Los Angeles County MA had incorporated and the four main groups of recovering pot addicts were unifying. We had a meeting in Balboa Park and the Board of…
The Story of the Lotus Eaters
Written by, Janet F. About 3000 years ago, the poet Homer told a story about a man called Odysseus, and his travels as he returned home to Greece from the Trojan Wars. He and his men met up with many adventures along the way, but one I always remembered was when he and his crew…
To God with Love, Goodbye to Drugs
Written by, Regina H. God, I get so disgusted with myselfWhen I refuse to knock the drugsBlow it away with one giant breath,Breath in beauty and blow out death. The pain is like saying farewellTo the potions that made me do dares wellFar away was never far enough to run,Chasing that next hit hasn’t been…
Progress Not Perfection
Written by, Mariska P. The Fourth MA Conference meant progress and letting go for me. Just under two years ago, it was “us” versus “them” and now it is “we”, a true unified entity of marijuana addicts in recovery. My how far we have come. Imagine through all the different opinions and personalities, Marijuana Anonymous…
Carrying the Message
Written by, Andi A. The Twelfth Step tells us, having had a spiritual awakening as the result of the Steps, we tried to carry this message to other addicts and to practice these principles in all our affairs. I learned very early on in MA that service would help to keep me sober. It kept…
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