“Does your marijuana use let you live in a privately defined world?”

– The Twelve Questions, Life with Hope, third edition, page 192

The Twelve Questions really blew my mind the first time I heard them. I identify most with Question Seven. I loved getting high outside and going into the fantasy world. At first, I was really mad if my drug of choice was not available; how was I going to get to the fantasy?

Eventually, I was able to learn how to live in reality and, eventually, I was OK with it too. The main thing that helps me stay in reality is my Higher Power. I ask for help and listen for where to go and what to do; I wait for the direction and it always comes. The greatest thing about staying in reality is that there are other people there. I found that I really like working with others; one-on-one, volunteering for an event, or making 12-Step work possible. In these ways, I find joy in reality and the here and now.

Final thought: Today, I can be right where my feet are and I usually like it.