“Prayer and meditation are a real source of power and strength in living our program.”

– Life with Hope, first edition, page 56

One day, I was on my knees picking out bits of pot that had fallen onto an upholstered chair seat. I realized, with some shame, that marijuana was the only thing that would get me on my knees—and had become my Higher Power. Shortly after coming into recovery, a spiritual advisor insisted that I meditate on a regular basis, which is probably the most helpful advice I have ever received. I have learned that when I am faithful to an Eleventh Step discipline of meditation, my life is different. I find that I have more serenity; that I am able to relate more healthily to the people around me, to the circumstances of my life, and to the world.

Today, I still can’t define my Higher Power with anything more specific than “love” and “strength.” I find it’s all I need. The more connected I am to my Higher Power, the more connected I feel to other people and to creation. I don’t know how or why it works—but it does.

Final thought: Today, I will spend some time in meditation. I will rest in my Higher Power.