“Recovery does not happen all at once. It is a process, not an event.”

– Life with Hope, third edition, page 5

Recovery is beautiful and painful. Becoming the best version of myself is amazing and messy. There are aspects of my life that have improved so much and there are some things that have kind of fallen apart. I know with practice and patience, everything will fall into place; however, before it can fully get better it must also fall apart. I’m not the person I thought I would be and that gets frustrating. I want it to come quickly, but that is not how recovery works.

At this point, I must accept my limitations. I must accept that I am only human and that it took many years for my life to unravel, so it is not probable that I can put it back together in only a couple of months. Things will come in time. My energy will slowly replenish. My spirituality will heal if I practice it. My relationships will improve as I do, and my life will flow as it’s meant to. Any day that I am clean is a blessed day.

I trust that the plan for me may look differently than the one I had for myself and with direction my recovery is ever blossoming. I put my faith in my Higher Power.

Final thought: Today, I ask to be granted the patience and understanding to know that I am exactly where and who my Higher Powers wants me to be.