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Healing My Inner Child Through Self Love
By, Fiona M.
As I have come into Steps 10 and 11, with a solid daily meditation practice and my Step 3 prayer, and my Step 5 and 7 prayer (which changes every day), I think that I have found the root of my problem.
The thing which I suffered from the most in active addiction, which stole my life-force, was my obsession.
Marijuana was always on my mind. The most important thing in my life.
Without it, I find my mind replacing it, with other obsessive objects. Something that I can think of, which my mind wishes to spin a fantasy of pleasure upon, that lifts me momentarily out of my daily life and out of a place of mindfulness, and presence.
If I substitute this thought, this desired object, with an image of a fantastical world —I tried a fluffy pink marshmallow world 🙂 — from below up pops my inner child, needing love and care and attention.
I realise that in my obsessive thoughts, I am looking for something outside of myself which I can only find within.
As an adult, only I can give my inner child– the wounded/neglected feeling part of myself which was shut away in childhood— the self protection, the love, and the care that they need.
On this day I give myself the love that only I can give.
Published in A New Leaf – February 2025
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