“Our new attitudes bring about self-esteem, inner strength and serenity that is not easily shaken by any of life’s hard times.”

– Life with Hope, first edition, page 68

I grew up as an insecure, shy, lonely child. I learned to disappear in the background; I had no self-esteem. I was fearful. Smoking marijuana alleviated these fears at first. I wasn’t afraid to talk to others and I felt like I was accepted. I didn’t realize that this was a temporary feeling; soon I became very paranoid and I withdrew. Depression became part of my daily life.

I was desperate when I came to MA; I was broken. I was surprised at how much I was welcomed into the rooms. I struggled at first. With the help of my sponsor, my Higher Power and my friends in MA, I was able to stop smoking marijuana and find a new way of living. As I worked the Steps and embraced my recovery, my depression lessened and I became stronger. I realized that I was an acceptable, lovable person. I could let go of my fear with the help of my Higher Power. The lessons of the Twelve Steps have become part of my life and the tools of recovery help me when I have challenges in my life. I can look at problems as “growth opportunities.” I look to my Higher Power for guidance. I am able to be of service and help others. I found inner peace and serenity. I am “happy, joyous and free” and I am so grateful for my recovery which has changed my life.

Final thought: Today, I will live by faith, not fear, and reach out to others.